If there was a ever a time I wanted time to stop, it would be these moments right here. And if you ever asked me when I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Ian, it would be these moments right here.
Time would not cut me a break and we couldn't have put off leaving any longer. On the way to the bus stop, Ian sat in the back with me while his dad drove. He held on to me the whole way down there. All I remember is "Then" by Brad Paisley playing on the radio and just holding him trying not to cry. It's funny. I always try to be so strong when we say goodbye. I try to hard to the point where it becomes uncontrollable and I lose it. I get so mad at myself for crying every time because I want to be strong for him. I know when I cry it makes it harder on him. But, it hurts- and I can't help it.
Well, once we got to the bus station. We waited inside for a while while everyone got their bags checked in. He kept me by his side. I could not believe he was leaving. I had no idea when I was going to see him again. I think that is what made this goodbye one of the hardest goodbyes yet. I remember when he had to get on the bus we walked outside and he hugged his dad. Then him and I hugged, and I was sure God would let time stop for a little while. But, I knew that it wasn't possible.
Once we kissed, and said our "I love you's" I watched the love of my life get on a bus, not knowing when I would see him again.
The guys at the bus station made us wait inside as the busses finished getting loaded, and I cried and cried. I had my hand on the window as I watched the bus pull away. Ian's dad just held me as I cried and as usual gave me the comforting words I needed to hear.
I knew that MCT was just another obstacle for our relationship, but I had faith in us. I always have.
I am in love with an amazing man, who is also a United States Marine. I fell in love with him before the Corps, and every single day that passes I fall in love with him even more. I intend to give you our straight story, and not sugar coat anything. I write for myself, and whoever comes across this page. I hope that if anything, you enjoy my story and maybe if you happen to go through some of the same things, you find hope in my words.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Ten Day Leave!
Or I could title this "ten of the best days of my life". I don't think we went a day without seeing each other. I won't bore you with the details of the entire ten days, I'll just ramble haha!
We got home from South Carolina late on a Saturday night. He ended up just coming home with me and staying the night at my house. We were up late because he had to iron his dress blues for church in the morning. I didn't even care that I was drop dead tired, I just wanted to be around him. Before church the next morning, I re wrote on the back on my car, "MY MARINE IS HOME, OOHRAH!"
At church the next morning, everyone was so ecstatic to see him. He even gave a small speech in front of everyone, and of course it made me cry espeically when he mentioned me and all my letters. After church, we were driving and we heard all this honking, and when we turned our heads, there was an elderly couple in the car next to us just waving and smiling at us. We didn't even know them.
One thing I noticed on his ten day leave was the absolute kindess of strangers, everywhere. We were at Blockbuster one night, and he was stopped in the middle of the movie store by a man who just wanted to speak to him about his journey so far. Of course, he asked if I was the girlfriend, and he told him he better keep me around and put a ring on my finger. lol! We get that a lot everywhere we go.
A lot of his time home, we spent with our families. Some days I would go to his house, and times he would stay at mine. Nothing was better than snuggling up and just being together.
Speaking of me staying at his house, when we first got home from SC his mom and dad said, "Erin can just sleep over here" Ian and myself kind of blew it off, cause I was never allowed to stay the night before. I think we just thought we imagined them saying that haha, so the first night I ever stayed over there was Thanksgiving night. We went shopping with his mom on Black Friday. It was so funny! We got to Toys R Us and the line was wraped around the building. All I remember after that was Ian swooping me up over his shoulders and running up and down the line screaming with me on his back. It was seriously so funny, and I was laughing so hard. We both drank red bull when we got home, so we were up late goofing around. But nothing is better than falling asleep and waking up next to him.
That's how our relationship has always been though. We are always so silly with each other. We are always joking, laughing, wrestling, and teasing each other. I wouldn't have it any other way. He's my best friend.
To sum it up, the ten days was perfect and I didn't want to imagine him leaving. It wasn't long enough and I didn't want to have to say goodbye again.
We got home from South Carolina late on a Saturday night. He ended up just coming home with me and staying the night at my house. We were up late because he had to iron his dress blues for church in the morning. I didn't even care that I was drop dead tired, I just wanted to be around him. Before church the next morning, I re wrote on the back on my car, "MY MARINE IS HOME, OOHRAH!"
At church the next morning, everyone was so ecstatic to see him. He even gave a small speech in front of everyone, and of course it made me cry espeically when he mentioned me and all my letters. After church, we were driving and we heard all this honking, and when we turned our heads, there was an elderly couple in the car next to us just waving and smiling at us. We didn't even know them.
One thing I noticed on his ten day leave was the absolute kindess of strangers, everywhere. We were at Blockbuster one night, and he was stopped in the middle of the movie store by a man who just wanted to speak to him about his journey so far. Of course, he asked if I was the girlfriend, and he told him he better keep me around and put a ring on my finger. lol! We get that a lot everywhere we go.
A lot of his time home, we spent with our families. Some days I would go to his house, and times he would stay at mine. Nothing was better than snuggling up and just being together.
Speaking of me staying at his house, when we first got home from SC his mom and dad said, "Erin can just sleep over here" Ian and myself kind of blew it off, cause I was never allowed to stay the night before. I think we just thought we imagined them saying that haha, so the first night I ever stayed over there was Thanksgiving night. We went shopping with his mom on Black Friday. It was so funny! We got to Toys R Us and the line was wraped around the building. All I remember after that was Ian swooping me up over his shoulders and running up and down the line screaming with me on his back. It was seriously so funny, and I was laughing so hard. We both drank red bull when we got home, so we were up late goofing around. But nothing is better than falling asleep and waking up next to him.
That's how our relationship has always been though. We are always so silly with each other. We are always joking, laughing, wrestling, and teasing each other. I wouldn't have it any other way. He's my best friend.
To sum it up, the ten days was perfect and I didn't want to imagine him leaving. It wasn't long enough and I didn't want to have to say goodbye again.
At last, I'm back!
It has been a week since he left. And saying goodbye is always hard. But nonetheless, one week down- and only 79 days until my birthday and I am on a plane to him. At least, if everything with his schedule goes as planned. I'd be so bummed if I couldn't go. But, I am going to end this post, and pick up where I left off after graduation. I have the day off work and we are snowed in so I'll spend my day writing. Not complaining :)
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